Tag: doom

  • Panic Sets In

    The trees waved their branches back and forth like they were trying to flag down help, and their leaves shook violently. We watched their panic in the moonlight from the back porch. When a cloud passed in front of the moon, the sky was silvery and dark blue, almost black – a dead face with a thick black beard, which was the woods behind our house.

    You said something terrible was about to happen. And then you said something about ions, which I didn’t understand. But I knew it had something to do with the air’s sudden dryness and the static electricity. You always knew so much more about the world and the systems it ran on than I did.

    Dogs pawing at a dozen living room windows on the block were barking in high-pitched distress. The strays, which had a much better head for undefined but pervasive danger, had already left the neighborhood. They’d probably gathered at the creek a quarter of a mile away. They went there, pressed their bodies low to the ground, and stayed quiet when they were under general threat, like when crashing lightning storms came in. The deer and foxes were gone, too.

    The people, though, were a mystery. We went around to the front of our house and watched couples walking fast on the sidewalk to get their steps in. Others drank wine with their neighbors in driveways. Little half-globes of light, from smart watches and smartphones, illuminated each of these scenes. The retired cop across the street sat on a lawn chair looking at the sky through binoculars.

    Darkness was pushing in, but they didn’t notice. Two worlds were coming together, but they weren’t combining. The one with the dead face was about to overwhelm and atomize the other.

    I took your hand, brought it to my lips, and kissed your palm.

  • On Inauguration Day

    Cristina is about to get on an airplane, and I’m worried. We’re being left alone with the airlines, which are untrustworthy. I’m afraid their planes are going to run out of fuel mid-flight because the pilots never have enough money for a full tank and it’s so easy to lose track when it’s always near empty. I’m afraid pilots will put off oil changes and that their planes’ engines will seize up after takeoff. I’m afraid engine warning signs will go off and the pilots will ignore them, and whatever problems they’re warning of will spread until the planes are on fire on the shoulders of runways and the passengers stand a few dozen yards away wrapped up in silvery blankets and looking dazed, and the pilots and co-pilots are a little to the side of the crowd looking sheepish and avoiding eye contact with the cops who are trying to find out what happened before the fire broke out. I’m afraid that planes will start landing at random times and random airports and the pilots will pretend those were always the times and places they were supposed to arrive at. I’m afraid airports are going to be like that truck stop in flat, muddy eastern Arkansas where Cristina went into the women’s restroom and listened from a stall as a woman with a tired voice said to her companion that they had to keep trying to suck off this truck driver because she had to get to Fayetteville. It was the meth – he couldn’t cum because there was no water left in his body. But she had to get to Fayetteville, so please. In this scenario, the airlines are the truck driver and some of us are the woman and others are her friend.